I look into my eyes in the mirror, and I wonder what others are seeing when they look at me...not about my physical image, but about the person that I am, about my soul. I wonder if they see the fear, the pain, the sleepless nights, the pure grit...and there is so many more things. I wonder if they realize the girl who is looking back at them has had some of the darkest days, and is thankful to be in the moment that she is standing in. I used to let that darkness control me and define me. I was a woman who had been absolutely destroyed by a man. I had let him come into my life and tear me down, tell me I was not worth it, I didn’t deserve it, and that I would never achieve. I had decided that it was all true, and the pain that I was dealing with every single day was how I was going to have to live. I have never been so unhappy in my life. I never looked at myself in the mirror, because when I did I had no idea what was staring back at me. I was ashamed of who I had become, and I didn't know if I was strong enough to change. I was lost in my own skin, and I felt trapped. I felt that there was absolutely nothing in the world that was going to save me. I didnt understand how this had happened to me and how I had gotten myself into a relationship with someone who was on drugs, had absolutely no regard for me at all. I had a masters degree, and I was working 3 jobs, while paying bills and getting ready to have a child. I felt like a complete failure. I just knew I would never make it, and I was going to drown. Even though the only thing I looked forward to everyday I was made to feel guilty for doing was my workout….I did it, because it was the only thing that made me happy. I literally felt like it was the only part of my life I had any control over. I was only surviving and that was very hard at the time. I heard...wow you are so motivated to workout at 29 weeks pregnant and it took every ounce of me to hold back the tears and say its the only thing that I have to look forward to. It's the only thing that is mine and that I feel proud of. . See comment for the rest of my post!
Confidence is built on accomplishment. If you achieve small and big goals, you’re going to feel much better about yourself. It begins with your day-to-day goals, what do you need to accomplish today, and every day this week or three days this week to help meet your goal? If you accomplish the goals you set for every day, chances are you will begin meeting weekly and monthly goals, which brings you in range of your bi-annual and annual goals. Keep in mind that progress is incremental, and big changes do not happen overnight. You’re going to feel like you can take a big project, and set an ambitious goal because you believe you can meet it. Set a goal for yourself, and go for it. Failing isn’t your enemy, it’s fearing failure that truly cripples you. If you set big goals and have big dreams, you’re going to feel overwhelmed, and you’re inevitably going to feel like you can’t do it. In those moments you have to look inside yourself, and gather every ounce of courage you have and just keep going. Every single wildly successful person has been afraid, and they’ve kept working and taking risks anyway, because what they are trying to accomplish is more important and urgent than their fear they will fail. Think about how much you want to achieve your goal, then put your fear to the side, and keep going, one day at a time. ⚡️💪🏽💫🤙🏽 . . . #stayfocused #earnednotgiven #aspiretoinspire #beastmode #feelingmyself #fitness #fit #workout #noexcuses #confident #motivation #COREenergy #core #abs #strength #mentalhealth #mentalstrength #inspiration #goals #gains #results #fitspo #model #vogue #pose #ifitdoesntkillyouitmakesyoustronger
No need to look mean🙏🏼🐅🙏🏼 God knows, coach knows , I know. I’m recovering an I’m preparing an sometimes things can take longer for others but just don’t doubt your time looking at others clocks or others acting like they got a timer in their hand on you , but they don’t realize they haven’t used that timer on themselves. So what do you do, if you haven’t started doing anything for yourself an you are realistically getting older an your going to want something more for your life an yourself inside you,but your doubt says I’m too old or it’s to late because (blablbla the same excuse)!but young enough to contradict others dreams while they realistically are the same age, while one man is controlled by a different power an way of thinking that’s is developed after you’ve been knocked down in life in every way an in everything you’ve done an you still wake up everyday now an smile an thank God your alive an know now this life is meant for the ones who stand, while you feel like the enemy was kicking your feet from under you all your life but no more for me at least. I shall fight , I shall conquer, I shall stand an I give my father thanks for its only him that made me do this, while I thought my life was over. My purpose was being created on the inside ready for me to project an I love my life not for what I have but for how I feel now an there are things in this world worse than physical pain. So when you just don’t understand how someone can train so hard, it’s from my life that sharpened me for where I’m headed.🙏🏼🐅🙏🏼🐅🙏🏼🐅🙏🏼🐅🙏🏼🥊 #doitforyou #mentality #motivation #ifitdoesntkillyouitmakesyoustronger #boxerinrecocovery #saywhatever #imcoming #gettingstronger #becomingwiser #sacrifice #iworkhard #itdoesntmatterwhereimat #mindovermatter #itsnevertolate #ageisjustanumber #dontlistentonegativity #believeinyourself #boxer #strengthtraining #lifestyle #gonnagetmycoachbackinthegame #aesthetic #athlete #loveyourself #dontdoubtyourself #youareyou #bethebestofyou